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IM LEGAL!! [ February 15, 2006 ] [ mood | happy ] Guess what today is...? 6 read reply

is it fate or god? [ January 31, 2006 ] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Marques Huston- Naked ] I know things alot of things are going to change soon. Im moving out of my house in about 4 months. I just started paying rent. There might be a possible job change in the near future. Im alone, and kind of tired of it already. I have new classes. I made some new friends. And im scared to lose the old ones. Not to mention my bithday is in 15 days and i cant be more excited but for some reason i dont want to have a party. I just dont feel like having to put all of that stuff together. I mean, i want to celebrate but im just out of ideas... Meanwhile stuart came into tijuana to get his ring back. AWKWARD. He changed and so did i. But i feel like im not really missing out on anything. I know theres no "us" in the future...the hug that ended with the "pitty pat" told me so. 4 read reply

i knew this was coming... [ January 28, 2006 ] [ mood | pensive ] [ music | Panic, at the Disco ] So, Stuart called me today... He wants his ring back. 6 read reply

hmm... [ January 24, 2006 ] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | im in mr o's class, again! ] Dear Cupid, This year, I've had my ups and downs in the love department. got me drunk so that they could convince me to do my karaoke version of I’ve Had the Time of My Life from Dirty Dancing. I tried to seduce with the whole ‘secret admirer’ bit but then lost interest. I got drunk at a party and ran around naked and still makes fun of me. So, as you can see, it's been a hectic year. Can you please make fall in love with me this Valentine's day? Sincerely, Heartbrokenhero Take this Quiz at QuizGalaxy.com ( or, take the 'adult' version at QuizUniverse.com ) 0 read reply

whats the verdict? [ January 24, 2006 ] [ mood | drained ] [ music | mr o repeating the same thing that he said yesterday.. ] my eyes are burning due to my lack of sleep.... everytthing is up in the air, and i just wish i could fast foward life through the crummy times. Now would be a good time to do so. Im in too deep and its too late to turn back now. 3 read reply

out of ideas?!? [ January 21, 2006 ] [ mood | grateful ] [ music | bLiNk ] My 18 Birthday is in 25 days.... and i have no clue what im doing. Im out of ideas and in some serious need of creativity. Whatever it is going to be... it WILL BE AMAZING!... but time is slipping by and im drawing a blank. HELP!!!! 2 read reply

i cant believe im doing this... [ January 11, 2006 ] [ mood | bored ] [ music | movie music ] You probably didnt know this until now... 1. Do you snore? no 2. Are you a lover or a fighter? depends on which day it is.. 3. What's your worst fear? closed spaces 4. As a kid were you a lego maniac? no 5. What do you think of reality tv? it ok but i dont watch alot of tv 6. Do you chew on straws? nope 7. Were you a cute baby? duh 8. Is the single life for you? now yes... but hopefully not for long. 9. What color is your keyboard? white /black 10. Do you sing in the shower? when no1 is home 11. Have you ever bungee jumped? not yet 12. Any secret talents? thats what they say... 13. What's your ideal vacation spot? anywhere but here 14. Is Jay Leno funny? no 15. Have you eaten sushi? yes 16. Have you ever seen the movie, Donnie Darko? yup 17. Do you give a damn about the ozone? yes but i HAVE to use hairspray.. 18. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? I'll never know, i bite 19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards? i dont have that much time on my hands.. 20. Have you ever been on an airplane? yes 23. What's your standing on hunting? horrible 24. Is marriage in your future? hopefully 25. Do you like your handwriting? sometimes 26. What are you allergic to? asprin 27. When was the last time you said "I love you"? this morning 28. Is Elvis still alive? i saw him on tv 2 weeks ago! 29. Do you cry at weddings? no 30. How do you like your eggs? I don't like eggs. 31. Are blondes dumb? sometimes 32. Where does the other sock end up? thats what the sandman wears.. 33. What time is it? 12:30 34. Do you have a nickname? plenty 35. Is McDonalds disgusting? its all about the spicy chicken. 36. When was the last time you were in a car? this morning 37. Do you prefer baths or showers? baths 38. Is Santa Clause real? i dont know 39. Do you like to have your neck kissed? UHUH!!! 40. Are you afraid of the dark? no way 41. What are you addicted to? music and sleep 42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter? crunchy! 43. Can you crack your neck? yea 44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? yea 45. How many times have you brushed your teeth today? once 46. Is drug free the way to be? yes 48. What color are your eyes? hazel 49. When's the last time you cried? last night when i realized that rachel was really gone. 50. Do you like your life? i was i could pause, rast foward and rewind. 51. Who's better mac or pc? pc 52. Are you psychic? sometimes 53. Have you ever read "Catcher in the Rye"? best book 54. Do you play any instruments? piano 55. Have you ever stolen money? no 56. Can you snowboard? ive never tried 57. Do you like camping? it depends on whom im with and where.. 58. Do you snort when you laugh? no 59. Do you believe in magic? yes 60. Are dogs a mans best friend? i guess 61. Do you believe in divorce? no unless your life is at risk 62. Can you do the moonwalk? i dont think so 63. Do you make a lot of mistakes? all the time 64. Is it cold outside today? it was nice 65. What was the last thing you ate? a wrap 66. Do you wear nailpolish? every once in a while 68. What's the most annoying TV commercial? every commercial... thats my number 1 pet peve! 69. Do you shop at American Eagle? when i have extra money to blow 70. Favorite band at the moment? The Used and Paramore 4 read reply

[ January 10, 2006 ] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | paramore.. ] I didnt know that this was going to be going to be that big of a deal.. I didnt even know she was still in the picture. I didnt think he was lying to me. I didnt know he cared this much... I didnt think i would feel like this. I know i like him. I know hes different than most. I know theres a reason for all of this... - but i have yet to figure it out. And i know im prolly just gonna get hurt by all of this drama but i feel like if i dont take a chance ill never know. I dont want to regret anything anymore.. but who does right? <33 2 read reply

Dilemma!!! [ January 7, 2006 ] [ mood | angry ] [ music | willa ford ] ok so..... i lost my makeup! 0 read reply

waiting... still, waiting [ January 4, 2006 ] [ mood | sympathetic ] [ music | ...so sick of love songs... ] DRAMA :A situation or succession of events in real life having the dramatic progression or emotional effect characteristic of a play... THIS SOUNDS LIKE MY LIFE, but i wouldnt anyone to play my character. Shes always tired, grumpy, and confused... plus she lets way too many things slide. But whats the girl to do? I cant help it, i like him PERIOD 7 read reply

Starting the year off confusing. [ January 2, 2006 ] [ mood | confused ] [ music | ... ] I really dont know what to think with this one. I know hes intrested but at the same time, hes such a jerk sometimes. His mannorisms are terrible when it comes to common sense with girls. Maybe his Ex was used to it, but im not. Even though Stuart messed up he still was polite, for the most part anyways. I wish i knew what to do. I always pick the wrong ones. And new years brought a different stroke of luck... But its such an iffy situation. I mean hes nice... cute... polite...and mature. But im scared. I'm tired of "what if's?" hummm its really cold in this classroom and the cute shirt im wearing is being covered by my signature sweater I just wish everything would fall into place right and i would know the best thing to do. For old time sakes, i guess : I'll Be The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful • Stop me and steal my breath • Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky • Never revealing their depth • Tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love • I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips • Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above • I'll be your cryin' shoulder • I'll be love suicide • I'll be better when I'm older • I'll be the greatest fan of your life • Rain falls angry on the tin roof • As we lie awake in my bed • You're my survival, you're my living proof • My love is alive and not dead • Tell me that we belong together • Dress it up in the trappings of love • I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips • Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above • I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead • Tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing you said • Chorus 6 read reply

finally [ January 1, 2006 ] [ mood | tired ] [ music | O Town ] I got something pierced... it hurt. Happy New Year!!! <3 3 read reply

he knows.. [ December 17, 2005 ] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | brandnew ] MY DAD FOUND OUT ABOUT ME KNOWING MY REAL MOM. i knew this day was coming but i didnt expect him to say what he did... "I hope your real fucking happy kid. You DONT KNOW what kind of woman she is.... i cant believe you, you fucking bitch. Have a great life with your mommy... etc" 4 read reply

This is me VENTING [ December 15, 2005 ] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | The Postal Service ] Alright so my moms car is the shop bc some bricks fell on the hood during Wilma, so now im sharing my car with her. And everything was going fine UNTIL.... last night. Last night I picked up one of my friends from her house b/c she didnt want to be at home b/c her and her dad were fighting. I had no problem with this whats so ever. My mom had a dinner thing to go to. So i told her she could use my car and i would watch Kayla for her that night and the next so she could go daning! How nice right? well niceness doesnt pay off in all cases. I asked her about 4 times what time she was going to be home b/c i had to have my friend home at 9. And she said i'll be home NO LATER THAN 9 OCLOCK. So everything was dandee. As time passes 858 rolls around and i call my mom to see where she was and no answer... i call again, no answer... i call again... voicemail. We go through Kayla's phone and try to get the number she called from. By now im pissed b/c it was my responsibility to have my friend home and now shes going to get in trouble for not being home on time, and having to call for her mom to come get her. I finally get ahold of her and she was being a total bitch. Honestly, i dont think i have never met anymore more RUDE. She said..." i told you i thought i was going to be home around 9... i never said that i was def going to be home then. Im at a parrtyyy... so uh i need to go now." I flipped. I dont mind watching my sis at all, but i really just wanna be like IM NOT WATCHING KAYLA TONIGHT, she your responsibility not mine. but its the fact that at least she could have had the curtisy to call me to let me know that she was going to be late WITH MY CAR. then she says.. " i was having fun at the party, i lost track of the time... so ..." I said " So mom can i use that excuse next time im late.." She goes " I think ur confused about who the parent is" Im an adult too and i think i deserve respect even more so considering im her daughther. I cant wait till im 18 and get out her house. 2 months exactly! Im out 3 read reply

she would have been 17 [ December 13, 2005 ] [ mood | okay ] [ music | John Mayer ] Dear Maggie, Happy Birthday, you would be here to celebrate it with me but God decided to take you away too soon. Remember when we were younger you would always talk about how we were going to be the same age for two months and two days after your bday. I remember. I remember everything. I remember you running away from me at my birthday party and me hanging out with Jamie instead. And then you came over and asked me to play barbies with you. And from then on we were inseperable. We were always together, and i loved every minute of it. I remember us promising that we were going to be each others "maid of honor" at each others wedding... and so much more. And i remember me telling you i was going to call you back when you called me a week before you were gone. I guess i was "too busy" to remeber. I realize now nothing was more important and nothing should have kept me busy from calling you. And now its too late to call you back. But i know you hear me and i hope God lets you read this. Because i just wanted to say ... Hey! ... I miss you Angel. Until i see you again Happy Birthday, I love you <3 Hillary 5 read reply

[ December 7, 2005 ] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | Sixpence None The Richer ] (I really want to find some Mistletoe...) Kiss me out of the bearded barley Nightly, beside the green, green grass Swing, swing, swing the spinning step You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight Lead me out on the moonlit floor Lift up your open hand Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me Kiss me down by the broken tree house Swing me upon it's hanging tire Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat We'll take the trail marked on your father's map Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight Lead me out on the moonlit floor Lift your open hand Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me (Does anyone know where i can find some?!?) 2 read reply

when it rains it pours... [ December 6, 2005 ] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | toni braxton ] Now that im over the whole stomach thing my throat hurts... and my chest hurts when i cough and im sounding pretty much like a man right now. its NOT cute. I really wanna go home, but i have too much to do after school. And my moms rule applys "If you not well enough to go to school then your not well enough to go out" soo.... Im going to see RENT w/ rachel finally, and then bs right after. I hope i get better by this weekend or someones gonna end up sick if they're not sick already. Sorry. I got my license on the 1st... so im not driving around illegally. Thats always good right? THE FOG outside is really bothering me, i like it in some kind of wierd way, but considering im kinda claustrophobic i feel like i cant breathe. And its freaking me out. I think the worst was driving and then seeing people appear out of nowhere.... <3Love<3 9 read reply

my stomach still hurts [ December 1, 2005 ] [ mood | sick ] [ music | ashlee simpson... b/c evin is hott ] So i lost like 5 pounds and i guess thats kinda cool, but my pants arent fitting me right and that bites. I really wish i had a normal tummy, and i didnt get so sick all the time. I think my uncle has IBS too, apparently it runs in the family. Oh well... does this mean i'll never get F A T ?? because if thats so then im cool with being sick all the time. haha Hum.... lets see i had alot of fun sat night. i dont regret anything but i think i might later on. either way i love rachel to death, and I DONT WANT YOU TO LEAVE!!!!! im going to sneak in your baggage. How funny would that be? BS is always fun, although some people make the dumbest remarks and i dont even know why they open their mouths.... but besides that i love going. The Christmas part will be announced soon, and everyone HAS TO BE THERE!... OR YOUR SQUARE!...and we all know how uncool it is to be square, its all about squiggly lines and circles and what not. I get my license today. I know all of u are DYING to hang out with me so just give in to your temptations and call. :) Just in case i havent told u lately, I LOVE YOU GUYS! <333 2 read reply

i just thought that you should know. [ November 24, 2005 ] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | macys day parade... ] If your reading this and i mean actually reading this that i care about you in some form or another... you may be my bff or someone i only see every once in a blue moon but today is about being thankful. And im thankful for YOU. So Happy Thanksgiving friends. i love you <333 gObBlE GoBbLe 2 read reply

drive in movie.. [ November 22, 2005 ] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | gwen stefani ] what an amazing past few days <3 0 read reply

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